Monday, June 20, 2011

I'm ashamed.

I know I've been BEYOND terrible at blogging.  I don't even have an excuse, other than pure laziness!!

Promise, promise, PROMISE to have an amazing post after this weekend in Chicago with the SM!!  You can count on that!!  :)

Hope you guys don't hate me!  :(

xoxo,
Me

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Here I am!

Oh my gosh, I'm back.  I have been so crazy busy!  And usually after work I'm just SO exhausted that I work out, shower, throw on my PJ's and do nothing but veg.

To give you an update though, things are going pretty great!  Well, in the dating part of life anyway.  Work is still a work in progress, but I'm not sure how long I want to have to work on that progress.  I take 1 step forward and 3983409283098234 steps back.  Frustrating!

So, I know I've mentioned my SM (Soul Mate) a few times, but let's get into the full story of this all over again so I can catch you up!  While I was in Florida for work training I met a couple girls, one was from Key West and the other from Maryland.  We were inseparable for the 5 days of training and have stayed in touch since leaving.  That was back  about 2.5 months ago.  The one gal, from KW, would tell me every day about how I reminded her so much of her guy friend in everything that I did.  I thought it was funny and interesting, because I'm a pretty odd bird.  She told him about me while we were still at training and nothing ever came of it.  Then she would randomly send me pictures of him when I got back to Ohio.  Here and there.  I thought he was SO freaking cute, I couldn't stand it!  I kept telling her to pass on my digits, but I think she might've thought I was joking because she never did.  Finally I was like "Hellooooo, pass on my digits to him!!"  And she FINALLY realized I was serious!  So she gave me his number and gave him mine.  I waited a couple of days to see if he'd text me, but I was tired of waiting because I just kinda wanted to see what this guy was all about, so I made the first step and just got it outta the way.  We probably talked for a total of maybe 30 mins and that was that.  I didn't want to be the only one texting him and seeming like an overeager freak so I just stepped back and let it go a few days.  Sure enough that weekend he ended up texting me before bed just to say hey.  Didn't hear from him the next day, even though he said he'd text me, so I text him the next night just saying hey and that I was sorry he had to work all weekend.  He got it in the middle of him sleeping so he forgot about it and text me a few days later apologizing for taking so long to get back to me.  We didn't really talk again until a couple days later when I was heading off for my date.  You may recall I said he and I text ALL night long.  Well....it's basically been non-stop since then.  EEK!!  We literally text from morning until it's time for bed, which we both end up going to bed way too late because we're too caught up in our conversation.  We talked for probably a week or so when we decided to have our first "phone date" and actually talk on the phone.  I was so nervous I almost couldn't eat dinner.  Almost.  I'm weird like that.  It is seriously wild how much we have in common!  I think our biggest differences are that I love the Cleveland Browns and he's a Pittsburgh Steelers fan, which are our rivals.  I gotta tell you, I'm more than willing to look beyond his horrible taste in NFL teams to see where this could go!

If I could describe my perfect guy, minus the Steelers thing, he would probably be damn near it.  He's super nice, very attentive, calls me on my days off while he's working just to chat for a bit in between calls (he's a cop), he isn't afraid of talking about serious things involving relationships...I mean, he's just AWESOME!  So, we were planning on when I could go down to KW to visit him and my friend, but I knew it'd be awhile.  I'm going to Cali in July and taking time off work for that, plus I paid a shit ton of money for the ticket.  Going to KW was going to have to wait until I saved up some more dough and PTO time.  Then out of nowhere he asks what I'm doing on June 24-26.  I mean, that was like a month away so I had no idea!  He said I should come visit him, and while I would've loved to KW was just not going to happen, as I've just stated!  Well, good thing he'll be in CHICAGO that week to visit family, so it actually IS possible!!!!!  It's only 6 hours from where I live!!  Oh my gosh, I am so freaking excited!!  An entire weekend away with the SM, this should be amazing!!  We have made a huge connection.  It's also nice to know that he's also been married and divorced, and also doesn't know if he wants kids.  Oh my gosh, talk about a soul mate!  It's hard to find that these days!  Some guys don't want "damaged goods" with me having been married before, and possibly not wanting kids is also a deterrent for some guys.  My last ex basically told me we WERE having kids, and I should've seen that as a sign to peace out since nobody is going to tell me I am DEFINITELY having kids, but I brushed it off.

Is this not so typical of me??  I absolutely would be the girl who hasn't met a guy in person and goes to spend a weekend with him in a city she's never been to.  Welcome to my weird life.  At least I'm not meeting a guy nobody has ever heard of before and spending a weekend with him...that would be a little too much!  Luckily I've got a friend who spends a lot of time with him.  I'm pretty nervous about the first meeting.  I already have butterflies about it.  I'm only going to be there 3ish days and I have already started planning out what I should wear.  I'm being such a freak about it!

We're supposed to have a Skype date tonight, this will be our first of those so of course I'm nervous and straightened my hair for the occasion.  What a dork.  It's just nice to have a guy reciprocate shit for once.  I was always getting walked all over, being the only one to do and say nice things, suggest doing stuff.  He's initiated all contact except the very first text, we can thank me for that.  I don't know, I am trying so hard to not get my hopes set too high, but I feel like it's already too late for that.  This has been such a strong connection.

Well...with that being said, I guess I should be on my way so I can mentally prepare myself for this Skype date!  Wish me luck!  ;)

xoxo,
Me