Ok, let's get right down to it, shall we?! We shall. I'm here to talk about my a.ma.zing. weekend in Chicago with SM!
Let me start by saying that I was SO excited for this day to finally come, that I only got one hour of sleep the night leading up to it. Ugh, what a mistake, but I couldn't help it! I was ready and raring to go, I just needed time to go FASTER! I'd gotten my spray tan on, since I'm sickeningly pale; I'd gotten my nails and toes did; I'd gotten a trip to the bangs and a waxing to the brows! I was SET! So, around 4am I decide to quit fighting it and just get up to shower. Tried to take as much time as possible so the time would pass quicker, but it didn't really work. Anyway, fast forward 6 hours and I'm in Chicago (well, a suburb anyway) and was
Soooo, there it is! Our first official picture together! Not long after, we were getting texts from our mutual friend that introduced us, so he told me to take a picture of us and send it to her. It's probably the cutest picture ever, so prepare yourselves!
Is he not gorgeous?! Ahhh, and to imagine that man is my Soul Mate, I got to have sex with HIM. Swoooooooon!! <3
Anyway, I'm really not trying to drag this whole thing out, I'm just trying to remember intricate details from 5 months ago! So, we walk around a little bit after the ferris wheel, then head over to the hotel. It was a really nice hotel, and he ended up spilling to me how much it cost him for the weekend...oh boy. I wasn't happy about it. Just because I didn't want him to spend that much, I felt bad! But, it was kind of nice to be spoiled by a guy for once. We were kind of exhausted when we got there, so we bummed around for a little bit, deciding what we were gonna have for dinner. We ended up just going to Chili's since we were going to a fancy dinner at Morton's Steakhouse the following night. Had a couple drinks there, ate our dinner and headed back to the hotel. I was laying down on the bed because I was slightly tipsy and tired as all get out, when all of a sudden SM grabs my hands and says for me to get up. So, I stand up, hug him and then.....*sigh* magic! First kiss, first kiss!! Ya know how sometimes when you first kiss someone, you guys aren't in sync and it comes later on, after you've dated for a little bit?? Not this time. I've literally never experienced a perfect first kiss in my LIFE until that moment. So, needless to say, he's a fantastic kisser. So, after a little bit, we got in the shower (together...score!), cleaned up and got ready for bed. But, not without sealing the deal first. Duh! First time I've put out on a first "date" and I am definitely ok with that!
Woke up Saturday morning, had some more sex, then went on our way! We did lots of stuff that day and still didn't do everything! We went to Sears (Willis) Tower, went to the Field Museum, Millennium Park and saw the bean thing, and just walked around in general. It was gorgeous out, a near perfect day! That night we had our fancy shmancy dinner, so I got to wear a dress and heels and feel pretty for a little bit. It was delicious, oh my goodness gracious. If you've never been, or if there is a Morton's near you, GO THERE!! It is definitely pricey, but it's worth it...especially if you're there with somebody you adore. After that we hit up the pool/hot tub area of the hotel for an hour or so. He and I are both ridiculously sweaty people so we couldn't stand to be there too long. Went upstairs, showered up, and proceeded to watch SNL while laying in bed. Next thing you know, I wake up, haha...we apparently dozed off. It was bed time! But, of course, I wasn't going to bed, knowing we were saying goodbye tomorrow, without some more sexy time. Aaaaand scene...
Sunday seems like it came WAY too quickly. But, I enjoyed the time we had together. We grabbed some lunch after leaving the hotel and then I dropped him off at his dad's. His dad happened to be outside, so I got to meet him. He's a shy man, but he's adorable and seems really sweet. Plus, I always think it's super bad ass when parents have tattoos, haha. Anyway, here's where things got weird. I didn't cry. IALWAYSCRY! I didn't even get misty eyed when I left him to go meet up with my friend so we could leave. What?! Who am I?! Honestly, I was quite proud. Because normally I allow myself to get attached to someone, even at a distance, so easily. And, for once, I didn't do that. Good job, Amy! Not that I wasn't going to miss him, because of course I was going to, who knows when I'd see him again?! I just, I don't know, I think I realized that I couldn't do that to my heart once again.
So, we first "spoke" on May 11, had a hiatus of not really talking, then on May 20 was when we started texting regularly...and we've talked every day since then. That's like a record for me. Talking to someone for 6 months and we aren't even dating?! Jeez. I really am a different person!
The good news is, I get to see him December 1-4. Heading down to Key West for our second SM weekend. I am beyond thrilled, I am already preparing myself mentally to break down when I have to leave this time. I think that's pretty good. 6.5 months of talking and I'm only now going to cry over him. Go me! But, honestly, there's going to need to be a talk happening while I'm there. I get that he doesn't want a long distance relationship because of his past with them, but he can't keep punishing ME for that. We practically ARE freaking dating for goodness sake! I mean, minus the fact that I go on other dates as well, but that's his own fault...he made it clear that it's ok if we see other people. Not that he has time, but I sure do. I'll get into that another time. Back to what I was saying...I really need something to come of this or need him to just tell me it's not going to happen, because I don't want to hold on to something that isn't there and end up falling in love with him. That would be horrible. Love is great, I love being in love...but it's not the same when that person isn't in love with you and isn't willing to date you because you're in another state. He applied for NYPD, and if he gets it I'll probably move up near there...but who knows when that could be?? I feel like this is something I want way more than he does, so I need to get it off my chest when I'm there. Wish me luck, because I'll need it. I feel like I won't get the answer I want, and that's completely unfortunate.
In other news, I hate my job. Ugh. That's a post in itself.
That's my quick rundown of me and SM! Hope you enjoyed and hope you don't hate me too much!
xoxo,
Me
